December 2011
not even sure that i want to go out tonight. it’s just going to be one big social anxiety fest followed by a suicidal drunken walk of shame home where i will be craving the cut all the way home.
i keep having this dream where i fall endlessly in love with this guy and it’s perfect. then all my fears and phobias come rushing at me. then i get attacked and raped by load of guys in masks. i think that pretty much sums up my feelings towards love.
