i’ve been through therapy twice already. i’m not saying because of that, it will never work. but do you know how virtually impossible it is for a therapist to help me sift through my issues when i have anxiety that is so bad that i cannot physically force words to come out of my mouth, no matter how hard i try. i can’t even write it down on paper and hand it to them. my anxiety is crippling.
and on the other note, posting my self harm, has always and will always be an important part of this. i’ve said many times that most of all this is my way of documenting how things are happening so i don’t have to keep it caged up in my head. if people choose to interpret it otherwise, well thats their own damn fault to be honest.
self harm is the least of my worries right now, with the way my mind is going. self harm is the one and only thing that’s always been there for me, it’s never gone and left me or abandoned me. i don’t mean to sound ungrateful, because i appreciate it, and thankyou. i’ve just been tired of all this shit for a very long time now and i think my patience just ran out.
theres no reason to fight it anymore
i’m over it, no sense in crying over spilled milk